Sunday, July 05, 2009

This weekend

This weekend was rather uneventful, I worked on the third so the Boy and I missed out on the fireworks. The fourth I was put on call so going anywhere is not really an option.

We did manage to go through a bunch of toys that the Boy no longer wants. They sat on my floor until today when I could haul them to a second hand store.

I am so addicted to Yoville on face book. I have also started playing another game called Wizards 101 not sure about that one yet but it looks good.

So I hope that everyone had a great weekend.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

We Are Everywhere.

A few months ago I was working in a hospital during my travels. I had worked there for several months and had gotten to know the staff well enough that they thought I was one of them.

One of the nurses who I seemed to work with more often than not and I started talking. She said that she hated living here in the west that she wanted to go back to the Midwest where there were actual values.

"So," I said. "What exactly do you mean?"

"Well, out here everyone is so liberal that it sickens me. There are the environmental laws, the bleeding hearts over the animals, and then out here you are all so easy on the gays. Welcoming them, treating them like they belonged."

As if that were not bad enough she had to continue. "I am so glad I don't know anyone who is gay, they make me sick."

I did the only thing I could think of doing. I looked at her and said. "Hi, I'm ..... and I am a lesbian."

The respiratory therapist (a woman) standing next to me looked at me and said. "My wife and I have been together for 12 years. How long have you been with your girlfriend?"

Needless to say the look on the nurses face was priceless. She turned pale, and looked at us both, and stuttered.

(This is the best that I can remember the conversation)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Pictures of Pride
















Oly Pride


Sunday was Olympia Pride. For me it started out with going to Batdorf and Bronson for a mocha, the Boy said that the coffee shop was decorated like the TV show Friends. It might have been but I love their coffee as they roast it there in the store. That and when there if reading or working no one will bother a person.

After coffee the Boy and I wandered about the booths for a bit, I ran into some acquaintances of mine. Then the parade started. I do know that I love to go to Oly Pride. For me the parade is the best part. I love the colors and the interaction with the crowd.

This year like last year if the Dyke's on Bikes did not have a rider they would pick one out of the crowd, stopping to change riders as they wanted to. Then there were the people who when marching if they saw someone that they knew would run out of formation for talks and hugs.

One young man who I saw there was so cute and fun, he was probably all of 19 20 and hoped into one of the cars that had someone running for city council in it. Then when he got back at the end of the parade he joined in with the Stonewall Youth.
One of the things that I like about Oly Pride is that there are a ton of family's and kids there. It makes it seem like the whole community is out there. There were people there with their dogs, kids and even a few cats on leashes.

I think that next year I am going to try and get to Portland for Portland Pride to see how a bigger cities Pride compares. I have never been to a bigger Pride and next year that is one of my goals.
I love that picture up at the top the way the image is blurred, and the flag is flowing. I have other pictures that I will post up later.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The Sound of Nothing

My son is going to be leaving for AZ in a month and I will be living on my own. The thing that I am wondering about is the sound of nothing.

I am not one who has the TV or radio on for background noise. If I want to listen to music I turn the radio on, if I want to watch a movie the I turn on the TV. So in living on my own in my own silence am I going to long for the sound of another voice or am I going to be on overload when I go outside and am in a crowd or at work.

Or will I become one who turns on noise just to not have that alone feeling. I guess I will have to wait and see.

Then there is work. OMG this week at work I have the worst schedule I have today off then Thursday off, then Sunday off. I requested Sunday off for Pride.

Monday I had off and I slept for a total of 14 hours. I needed it.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

I Did It

My son is home for the summer and part of me was dreading what I had to do. So some background.

Every other Sunday a group of us gets together and games. Yes I know, but I am a gamer at heart and for me it is a way to relax and escape the dealings of real problems at work. So I go, roll dice and kill giant bugs. Very therapeutic, tho I think most of it is just talking with other some who are in the medical field and other who are not.

So, at game everyone knows that I am a dyke. Some write about me in their diversity classes, some ask me to check out the woman in that movie. They know they accept or deal with it.

My son however, was not told. It is not that I was being secretive about it, it is just that I did not even know for a long time. Then when I realized "You dumb*$$ your a Lesbian" I had some things to work out. Lots of things to work out. Guilt, hatred of myself, fear, and the list goes on.

When I finally got ready to tell him about Honey what does the boy do. Up and move out of state to go to a HS where he gets better grades then ever.

I did not think that telling him on the phone was a good idea so I waited until he got back home. I did not tell him the way I wanted to but when I did he said, "I kinda figured." Talk about anticlimactic.

So I am out to everyone in my family that I care about, except the two little ones. Honey and I both agreed that their mom is the boss of them and are going by her wishes.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Birthday Stash











The statue is the goddess Danu. She is an Irish Goddess, the books are going to go in my car and be work books for me to read when I am at work. The flowers and the statue are from Honey, and the books are from the Kid.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Night Shift

Lady G asked me how I don't get messed up working nights. I thought about replying in the comments but realized that this would make a great post.

I love working nights, there is a different "feel" about them. One not so rushed, so urgent. However, all of this started when I was little about 8 or so years old. When I would get sent to bed with the lights out, I would lay there awake for hours. Then when the birds would start singing I would fall asleep.

As I got older I hid a flashlight in the bed so that after everyone else was asleep I would read until I could fell asleep. Now, this took forever as reading is exiting and keeps me awake until I finish the story. There were times I would go to school exhausted from not sleeping at night. I just could not do it.

After we moved around, and around. Try 10 different elementary schools in 5 states (my dad was an electrical field engineer) my parents decided to home school us. That was great. I could sleep all day and then do my work when I woke up.

I have always been a night person, I did try to work day shift for a year. That year I was so exhausted that I would sleep and work and sleep. There was nothing else. Even my days off were a chore. No, I love the night and the night shifts.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

School

I have been thinking about going back to school. I would like to go to an online school at least to get some off it done. However, I have heard both good and bad about different schools and I am not sure what to trust.

I have talked to an adviser at one of the more well known schools and have been told that what he thinks from what I have told him it would only be a year to get my BA. I would love to go thought with it and have everything done.

The biggest advantage for me with an online school is sleep. I can do all of my classes at night when I am up and not worry about trying to stay awake during the day when I have to sleep so that I can work. I do wish that more places would be accommodating for those who work nights.

I would love to be able on my nights off to go the bookstore when I can't sleep. Some restaurants are open late at night and that is good. But, sometimes a book store would be nice.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Jesus the End or Parts 3 and 4

Then Jesus said take care of those with less then what you have. OK I know the term used in most bibles is poor. But Poor does not cover all that he ever talked about in that regard, I think in terms of less fortunate he meant. The sick, kids with out people who love them, homeless, hungry, thirsty, with out finances, and the list goes on and on. For me I think that working in the hospital covers this one. There is defiantly the sick, the homeless, the addicts, the hungry/ thirsty.

Then there is the last thing. Do Not Judge... Oh crap this one is so hard. We judge on first impressions (the up all night mom at the grocery store in sweats), lifestyle (redneck, gay, world hopper, rich) money, class, education, language skills, the list goes on and on and on and on. So how not to judge, how not to think of others in terms of ewww or wow or fear (look over there it is group of teens)? Personally, I don't want the job of judging others, I have been the one in sweats at the store after being up all night with the sick kid, I am the one with the gay lifestyle (whatever the hell that means). I am the one who because of my job that I choose to do people assume that I have no education. I have packs of teens at my house.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Jesus part 2


Jesus said in so many ways so many words.

#2 Love your neighbor::


Oh Crap. Does that mean the ones next door who wake me with their screaming, fighting and cussing just when I fall asleep? Does he mean the ones up stairs who are currently trying to put holes in my ceiling by playing Dance Dance Revolution? Or are my neighbors the people that I interact with at the store, library or work?


How the hell am I supposed to love some one who screams all the time and keeps the neighborhood awake or is this more of the respect and acknowledgement thing and love was just a generic word for the translations?


Jesus part 1


I have been thinking a lot about Christianity lately. I was raised as a Christian and spent many years going to a legalistic church. I have fit into several very well, and other I have been in subtle ways asked not to come back or have been made to feel so unwelcome that I have never returned. Now, I know that this is not the case in all churches. That my experiences are mine alone.


When I first moved back to Oly I started attending a church just a few blocks away. That was great it was in walking distance and it was a denomination that I was familiar with. The first few times I went it was OK. Then a man and I were talking about bands, what was good, bad and just never ever should have been attempted. After that simple conversation the pastor started preaching on attraction to a married person when the woman is single. I thought that it was just something that was a coincidence. I had no interest in the guy other than he knew who I was talking about musically. Then in Sunday school the women all started to ignore me, when a question was asked and I knew the answer, I was passed over to the next person. I took the hint and never went back.


The next church I was going to a singles class. This church was a drive and I had to get up much earlier to attend it. The class instructor asked the question "What does mainstream America think that Christians look like?"


Well, me being me I said the first thing that popped into my head." Christians have horns, a tail and carry a pitchfork." Needless to say I was asked not to come back.


So that brings me to my point. Jesus said the same thing over and over in many different ways trying to get his point across. He said::


#1 Love God - OK that one is simple enough, or is it?


Does Jesus mean love as in "OHHH What a cute puppy, I just love it"?


Does he mean love as in " IT'S (insert stars name here) I JUST LOOOOVE YOU"?


Does he mean love as in " Oh Baby, (think Berry White's voice here) I love you so much, that I want to take you out to the beach and see if we are fertile"?


Or does he mean love as in honor, respect, show acknowledgement of ? I guess that this is not an easy one after all. I think that he means this one, acknowledgement of. We all like some kind of praise.


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Rhoddy Pix I Took for Honey













There is red, light purple, yellow, bright pink, and pink/white.


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Changes

I could write about California and Prop8, I could write about Ref 71 here in Washington state. However, there are so many others out there who are so elegant at putting into words the thought and feelings about what is going on that I will leave it up to them.

There has been a great upheaval in my household. I knew that this day would be coming, I just thought that it would be in September. My brother who has been my roommate for about 5 years now is moving to Arizona. The reason for now is that he has a great opportunity for a job down there, so I don't blame him one bit on this. So he is now leaving in June. What that means for me is that I have a choice to stay here or go there.

I won't have any family up here that is less than 2 hours away. I will be on my own. I am a little bit afraid not of being on my own but of getting into a depresses state. One where I just work and do nothing else. I am looking into taking classes, and finding other things to do. I wish that here in Oly there was a GLBT group that met on a regular basis. I would have to go to Tacoma for that and I drive to much for my job as it is.

I have thought about starting up a book club one that is not as structured as the ones I have tried to belong to in the past. This may be the time to do that. Now I have to go and make cinnamon rolls.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Movie Night

Last night some friends and I went to see Angels and Demons. I years ago had read the book and when the Da Vinci Code came out I read that one too. In both cases the book and the movie Angels and Demons was much better.

I know that for a book of that size it is hard to capture all of what is in the book for the story line. I also know that they presented the Da Vinci Code movie as happening before Angels and Demons. That was a bit odd as I knew from reading them it was the other way around.

I did have one really large problem about the movie but I was able to over look it. When Tom Hanks character said something it reminded me of Forrest Gump. Then Ewan McGregor showed up all dressed in black, I had to whisper to Tanya. "Forrest Gump meets the Jedi."

Today Honey went to see the new Star Trek. I have not seen it yet as I told K when he gets home I will take him and we will go. She did send me an IM saying it was 4 out of 5 stars.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Bug Food

Tonight I walked out to Hicks Lake to see if I could get some pictures of the bats that are there. All I managed to do was feed the misquotes.

First I thought I had the timing right, but nope I left to early. Second, I thought nothing of sitting on a bench to wait to see how long it took to get dark enough for the bats to come out.

When one of the nasty little blood suckers landed on my arm and it was the size of a small bird. I left. I will have to try on another night.

I did today go out when the great flaming evil ball of heat was up in the sky and get some pictures of Rhododendrons. We happen to have peach, pink, red, light purple, purple and yellow ones in my apartment. Tomorrow when I am going over to play Shadowrun I am going to have to remember to take my camera. Near the mall there is a parking lot that has orange ones.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Wordless Wednesday Not

I was looking through the photos that I have on my computer to post for Wordless Wednesday and I realized that I need to get out and start photographing the town as I see it again. That means going out at night when the town is almost shut down. When most of the people are asleep, I know that the idea of that upsets a lot of people but being out at night is when I love it.

The cool night air, the reduced street noises, the smell of the pine trees and the Sound mixing. Yes, I think that is what I have to start doing again.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mothers Day

The Little one is Sam, he is 8 months old. In the picture with him are mom and dad. The one below is an older sibling. So to all the mother's out there who did not go through 12 months of being pregnant, and then having a kid the size of a small car. YEAH US! Happy Mothers Day.





Friday, May 08, 2009

Sleep

Wednesday and Thursday I did not sleep very well at all. I was some what achy and some what hurting. So this morning when I went to bed I took one just one of my knock out pills. OK, I call them that what I take is one just one Ad*il PM. Just one will put me out for 8 or more hours, I am amazed at people who can take things that a stronger and still manage to breath.

I slept for about 9 hours today and I feel so much better. The bad thing is I am not working tonight and now have so much energy that I am about ready to start pacing the floor. Oh well, I will start working on my counted cross stitching soon.

I did not leave the house at all today and I also think that helps. I did not have to hear about problems when walking past someone. I did not have to deal with drivers who should NEVER EVER be allowed to drive, ones who break the traffic laws just because. I guess I need another day of vegging out.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Zoo











These are pictures from the zoo when Honey and I went. There are more and tomrrow I will get them up.
I have tonight and tomrrow off. I am not going to leave the house unless I have to. I don't want to have to deal with anything that I don't have to. I am just worn out, sometimes work does that to me.




Sunday, May 03, 2009

H1N1

My best friend,(who is also Honey's best friend) who lives in New Jersey has been for several weeks has been ill. She has Lupus and so will when stressed out get flair ups where she is in pain and just not feeling well.

A few weeks ago she went through something stressful and we all thought that she was having another flair up. Last Wednesday after going to the Dr. it has been determined that she has a kidney infection, pleurisy, and the flu. They sent her home with antibiotics for the infection, and a refill on some of her other meds.

The Dr. sent off her flu to be tested and it came back from the CDC as being H1N1. So she is feeling much better. The infection in her kidney is getting better and she is having an easier time breathing. It seems that the flu is not bothering her at all it is the other two infections that are bothering her. I am glad that she is getting better.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Monday, April 27, 2009

Our Very Very Short Weekend

On Wednesday I picked Honey up at the Portland airport and by 330 we had checked into the hotel. Fade to black. . . . . . . .

Thursday morning after a late start we walked to the Portland Coffee House for coffee and a pastry. Then we got the car and drove up Burnside to the Sylvan Hills. We drove about and then went to the zoo.

It was a beautiful day for the zoo not to cold, not to windy, not to rainy. We saw bald eagles, an 8 month old baby elephant named Sam. Had lunch in the cafe, and watched the birds in the aviary. There were some very beautiful ones in there. After we ate we found the Lorikeet's where for a dollar juice could be bought to feed them. We opted not to but the children who were feeding them were mobbed by the birds. That was such fun. The penguin place stunk as usual, the Sea Lions were huge and had to poo. The Sea Otter was soooo cute and the polar bear had a ball the she just had to play with. We saw the zebra, giraffe, leopard that was trying to cough up a hairball. The wolves had what the zoo called a fresh carcass, to me it looked like an uncooked rack of ribs. Because of the construction all of the big cats were not out. The zoo is building them new homes and the same with the primates. Some were out like the chips ,others were not because of construction on the new homes. Oh, and can't forget the neekkeed mole rats, they were ugly buggers.

We did not ride the train to the Rose or Japanese gardens it was starting to rain and the temperature dropped. So we got back in the car and went to Powell's. I got out of their with only spending $31 on books. I did have a cup of coffee and we split a flourless chocolate cookie that was oh so rich.

We then went back to the hotel rested just rested, get your minds out of the gutter. We walked a bit downtown and went to Kathleen's of Dublin. Where there were lots of cool shopping things. For dinner we had pizza at a place across from the hotel it was yummy. Then back to the room to sleep. JUST SLEEP.

Friday morning we woke early and got out of there late. I got the car while Honey ran and got some coffee for us both. Then we went to Voodoo Donuts. I got a Dirty Old Bastard, a Triple Chocolate Penetration, and two Bacon Maple Bars for my brother. Honey got a Dirty Snowball, that she said was very very good.

On the way home we stopped at the Toutle River as Honey had not seen how when Mt. St. Helens erupted what it did to the land. As we were walking along the river gathering rocks, she stopped and said.

"Look a bald eagle! Its a bald eagle."

"Yep,"I shrugged."They are all over the place." Well she gave me a look like I was either nuts or just did not care. I told her later that they are all over the place there is a nesting pair in Oly and then when we got home my brother told her about the one he saw when he was working that was trying to get a house cat. She told me that in CA it is still rare to see one. They are so beautiful.

Anyway, I had to show off my town just a bit. So we went to the Farmers Market where I bought her some tulips. Then we went to Earth Magic where the owner Ray showed me some very beautiful stones. I bought one for Honey, then Ray gave her a stone for safe travel and to ease her worries.

I took her to Shipwreck Beads where she bought a jade stone that a clasp to make it into a necklace. The library as I don't have a printer and she needed to print her ticket. Fred Meyer's to get an avocado for dinner.

When we got home my brother had fixed pulled pork tacos for dinner YUMMY! After dinner we walked down to the lake and as it was near dark the fish and other animals were out feeding on the bugs. We stood and watched as the night life came awake around us. Honey asked me about the big dragonflies. I had to tell her that they were not dragonflies but bats. Small bats. I guess where she lives they don't have any bats or a limited number of them. At the lake there were about 15 eating the bugs.

On Saturday I had to take her back to Portland to catch her flight. I kept asking her if I could kidnap her, but I understand about responsibilities. Then as we got past Kalama, there on an old support for a shipping dock was a nest and in the nest a pair of bald eagles.

I do have pictures of the zoo, and the tulips that I will post later.

I am so glad I got to be there with her when she saw the eagles and the bats. I love sharing new things like that with her. Honey, remember the fireflies? It was a very very short weekend.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Monday and Counting

I have not been around as much as I would have liked last week. I ended up working 5 12 hour shifts on the med/surg floor and all I could do was work and sleep and eat. So today I took today off and I went over to some friends house. We were to have played at game and a few other things but went shopping instead.

I looked for what I wanted but everything came in a set and I don't want a set I want one piece. That is hard to find so I think I am going to go looking at Goodwill, and Value Village for what I want. Most of the department stores charge way to much for a dish anyway. One of the ones I looked at was $25 for something that holds less than a half a cup. OK so when it comes to dish wear I am into cost effective but still want something good looking. Am I asking to much?

So far the plan is that on Wednesday I pick up Honey at the airport in Portland. I know I keep going on and on about seeing her but it has been YEARS! OK, not really but it seems like it. I am so excited I want everything to be perfect.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Not a Wordless Wednesday


I had a very pretty picture all picked out for here and then when I woke up realized that I had to much to post about.


Lori over at Hahn at Home asked me if to let her know if Powell's is wonderful it is. Lori if you get up to Portland on your trip to Oregon you will want to go there. There are several off shoots but the main one is on Burnside and it is called Powell's City of Books. They are not kidding. The place is an old converted building that takes up the enter city block. I do have some advice if you drive and park see what color entrance that you go in at. If you don't do that you might have trouble finding your car. The place is so large that there are maps of the building so that it is easier to find what you are looking for.


When I got off work today, well OK last night when I was at work I realized that it was only a week 7 days until I get to see Honey again. I am so excited about that.


This afternoon when I was sleeping the house passed the "everything but marriage" bill. The Olympian has a short write up about it here. After the Governor signs it into law and she is expected to Domestic Partners will have all the rights and responsibilities that the state offers to hetero couples.


So not a Wordless Wednesday but I still have to put the picture up.

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Extiting News

Yesterday Honey found out that she does not have to go to Chicago for a business trip. I was waiting for that news. So now on the 22nd she is going to fly into Portland. We are going to spend Wednesday and Thursday there. Then on Friday come home to Oly for the night then on Saturday we have to go back to Portland so she can fly home. I already hate Saturday.

For Portland we have plans. We are going to go to Powells City of Books. One of my favorite places in Portland. The store is so large that they have a mayor. Woohoo!!! I get to see Honey and make a list of books I want to get not much else can be better.

We are also talking about going to Washington Park. There is the zoo, the International Test Rose Garden, Hoyt Arboretum and lots of other places to see. There are two trains that run through parts of the park from the zoo. I will have to do more looking into those, I know that one of them has great views of Hoyt and the zoo.

Then Friday morning before we head up to Oly we are going to make a donut run. I will eat donuts but not very often unless they are Voodoo Donuts. I have heard that at one time this shop was on Food Network but I have not seen the show and if it was on there I am sure that they did not talk about the specialty donuts. If you want to see what I am talking about go to the site and look at the menu.

As for my goal. From last Tuesday to this Tuesday I have lost 2 pounds. WOOHOO!! I GET TO SEE HONEY!!!!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Monday, March 30, 2009

Night Shift

I love working nights. It is a more controlled environment, a more relaxed one. The only think I don't like about night shift are my nights off.

I know many people who on their nights off sleep at night and are up during the day. I cannot do that it is to hard for me to switch back and forth between the times. So on my nights off I am up. Most of the time I can find things about the apartment to keep me busy. I do have to keep the noise down. I can clean, but not vacuum. I can read my music, but not practice. I can sit on my butt and watch movies, play video games, read, and other quiet things.

I wish that other than the hospital, and a few grocery stores/ restaurants there were other places open all night. I am not a bar person. I would love to at 3am go to a book store. Have a cup of coffee and graze the shelves.

Sometimes, nights are lonely. Sometimes they don't bother me at all.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Goal Started

I have taken the first steps on my goal to loose wight. Last night I did what anyone should do when starting a wright loss program. First I took a long hot bath hoping, that like boiling a chicken I could leak some fat out that why. Then just in case that did not work I shaved my legs and underarms. I think that might take an ounce or two off.

Actually, I am going to clean out my kitchen today. I am going to go through all the cupboards, and the drawers and get rid of anything that I should not have. Including things like spices that are outdated. The sad thing is that I am going to have to make a list of what I need to replace. It is not a long process to do it is just messy.

Next week it will be the bathroom. I don't have any idea of what is under the sink in there and I am not even sure I want to look. I think there might be something living under there, my mouth wash and powder gave birth to something that lives. It is not exactly that bad but it has been 6 months that I have cleaned it out.

Friday, March 27, 2009

I have a goal

I have a goal and to make sure that I achieve my goal I have a reward setup at the end of my goal. I want to loose 30 pounds. When I reach that goal I am going to either get a new tattoo or new speakers for my car.

I currently have one tattoo and I have one speaker in my car. The speakers will cost a lot more that the tattoo so I am leaning toward the tattoo. Though it would be good to be able to hear the music in my car and not just some of the noise. First I have to loose the weight and that will be the hard part.

I do like to ride my bike if I had one that fit me. Mine is to short and so I always feel funny on it. Walking is ok but I do so much of that at work. Then there is my big red ball, I love my big red ball. Crunches are so fun on it. I know that crunches won't help with weight loss but they are to me anyway enjoyable.

So for the next few weeks on Tuesdays when I am at work I will weigh myself. The reason I am going to do it there is the scales and I will be wearing the same weight clothes at work all of the time. I will have to watch what I eat, though I am not a big eater it is more the getting out and doing things.

As far as a gym goes I would love to go to one. However, the only one open all night wants a contract signed I would rather it were a pay as used facility. I know at 1am there are no classes but I am not into classes anyway. I am always one step off and feel like a dork.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Monday, March 23, 2009

Monday's and Where I have Been

So about my laptop. I took it back and showed the repair dpt exactly what happened, and what I had wanted done. It turns out that the man who checked my computer in was fired just after I had turned my computer in. The store manager said that my hard drive was shot and that what was done to it did not fix the problem. I felt like saying "DUUUHHH!!!" They are going to put in a new hard drive and it is going to cost me the price of the hard drive.

The House voted on the Domestic Partner expansion bill and I have not yet heard the results but I have been looking.

Stolen from Tina because it is fun.

Bold the states you've been to, underline where you have lived and italicise the one that you live in now: I can't figure out how to underline so for the states that I have lived in I am going to change the color of the text.

Alabama/ Alaska/ Arizona/ Arkansas/ California/ Colorado/ Connecticut/ Delaware/ Florida/ Georgia/ Hawaii/ Idaho/ Illinois/ Indiana/ Iowa/ Kansas/ Kentucky/ Louisiana/ Maine/ Maryland/ Massachusetts/ Michigan/ Minnesota/ Missouri/Montana/Nebraska/Nevada/ New Hampshire/ New Jersey/ New Mexico/ New York/ North Carolina/ North Dakota/ Ohio/ Oklahoma/ Oregon/ Pennsylvania/ Rhode Island/ South Carolina/ South Dakota/ Tennessee/ Texas/ Utah/ Vermont/ Virgina/ Washington/ West Virgina/ Wisconsin/ Wyoming/ Washington D.C

Internet Site Changes and My Laptop AGAIN

There are some sites that are better for change and others that are not. Then there are some that change things to make them better, but they take things away that I think should have stayed.

I love posting on Blog spot it is easy and most of the time I do not mess things up. I have noticed a change that I am not to happy with, and that is the Followers section. It use to be that when I clicked on a name of a follower if there was a blog associated with that person I could link to them and read who is reading me, and I love to read who is reading my blog. On this new format I have noticed that is not always the case. I got a new follower on Sunday and the name is very familiar to me. However, half the time I am on line I am not quite awake.

So if you are so inclined and are following me and you want me to be able to read who you are put a link in the comments for me. I would love to read who you are, and if I know who you are and happen to be just to tired to think or remember put it up anyway so that when I do wake up I can feel like a complete dork.

I have to take my computer back to the repair place again. Last time it was just because they forgot to load my mouse driver like they said they would. This time I want them to fix my computer for free or give me my money back. I told the person when I took it in that it was running slow, and I new it needed more memory. I also told them that I was getting a blue screen that said I was having an error (no I don't remember what kind). Then it would run something called chkdsk. All of this happened with out me touching the bloody thing.

Well, on Saturday night I went to start it up I got the blue screen, then it started recovering files and now NOTHING. When I turn it on I just get "hit F1 or F2" and when I do that a bunch of stuff comes up and I have no idea what it is. So I want my $221 back, then I can put it toward a new computer.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Friday, Can You Tell I am to Tired to Think of a Title

Today is the second day of my 12 night shifts and I have a good chance of being told not to come in. There is to be a bunch of discharges, but I won't find out for a few more hours if that is going to happen. I wish they could tell me now, but I know that is not possible there could be a run on the ER and then a lot of admits.

If I do get cancelled I still have to go to the hospital, I have to have my TB test read and according to the employee handbook only the house super or the er can read it. That means that if I did end up not working that even though I have been invited to a birthday party tonight where EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE but me is an RN. I still would have to go to the hospital and get it read.

I found out today that the House is going to vote on Monday domestic partnership expansion bill. The bill is to be presented at about 1pm and voting starts at about 3. I might go to that if I am up and not working on Monday. Yesterday, the fundies were in town protesting the bill. I have not seen anything in the paper or on the news about their gathering. It must not have been impressive.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

The Cleaning Marathon Begins

Well, today I forgot that I was to go for my second TB test for the new job that means that in the morning I am going to have to go and get one done. That is ok I have a lot of running around to do tomorrow.

I have decided that I am going to take one room in the house and clean it in a week. I don't mean just dust and vacuum. I am talking about cleaning out cupboards, closets and where ever else I have shoved stuff. I started in my bedroom with my closet. That took almost 5 hours. I went through my clothes, and boxes of papers that I had to hang onto but no longer need. So when I go out I have to run to Value Village to droop some clothes off, put books in the car to take to H's to see if she wants them.

Just thinking about what I have done today is wearing me out. I think I am going to play some video games before bed.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Equaliy Day

Yesterday was Equality Day here at the state capital. I went and had a blast.

My day started at 4:40am very early I know, but I had to get up and read blogs before I started to get ready. Then I remembered that to show a untied front green was the color of choice. Well, me being me the only green that I had was a scrub top that does not fit and a coat. So I headed over to that nasty little store called W*mart. There I found a green shirt in the men's department. It was one of the few that did not have a St. Paddy's Day logo on it.

Came home and Honey called when I was getting changed so we talked while she drove into work. That was a better start to the day. On the way to the Capital Campus I had to stop and have my TB test read.

When I got to the meeting place I was surprised to see only about 20 or so people. But this was registration for the information on how to meet and talk to the Senators and Representatives. Then a walk across the grounds to one of the office buildings to where we were to learn how to talk to these people and how we were going to organize. One of the things that was passes out to us was a sheet broken down by district and how they voted. If your district had people who voted yes we were to thank them and ask any questions that we had.

So District 22 all found each other and we then went to lunch at a place called Marconi's. I recommend it if you want a sub and are ever in Olympia. After lunch it was back to the capital dome for the rally.

There were at least 1,ooo people there. It was great fun of course the way the speaker system was set up and where our group was standing I could only hear about one out of ten words on the speeches. But it was a beautiful fun day.

After the speeches it was time to go and meet the lawmakers. We had a 1:30 appointment with Senator Karen Fraser. She was on the floor for a vote and could not see us but we did speak with her intern and she said that she would pass the message along for us. From there we went to meet our Representatives for the House. Now, the house has yet to vote on the bill and they are not sure when it is going to get to them, just sometime in the next few weeks.

We meet with Rep. Sam Hunt he came off the floor to say hi. I think what impressed him about our group is that we had some high school students with us. It was a short meeting as he had to get back out on the floor.

Rep Brendan Williams was also on the floor and could not meet with us so we meet with someone from his office gave him a note of thanks. From there I went over to Stonewall Youth.

At Stonewall Youth I meet a bunch of great young people who were all interested in the vote, marriage and what was to happen after marriage became possible in the state. A long exhausting day but fun.

I do have some pics that I will post at a later date.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

What Wednesday was About

Yesterday was my first day of orientation at the hospital. It was a 12 hour day and I was so glad that I worked there thought the agency for 2 years. It was so busy up on the med/surg unit that at the end of the day the floor had 30 patients. Not only were there all of the admits, no discharges, but we had students with us as well. CNA students who were still in High School. Most of the time they stood around and looked shocked at what they saw. T here was just not time to coddle them along.

Not only that but I feel like I have run a marathon. It has been a long time sense I've had more than one patent and so all the room hopping wore me out. Thank the Goddess that on Friday I start my 12 hour noc's. I could not do 12 hour days I think it would kill me.

The laptop is back. It has more memory and it has had some programs deleted. It is still crashing so I think my hard drive is going and I am going to have to look into getting a new one soon. I don't want to spend the money on a new laptop but I do need a computer for blogging, emails and checking the news.

Time to get going. Today I have to have my TB test read, then head on over to the capital building. It is equality day today and I signed up months ago to talk to the senator of my district. I hope that I am not the only one who is going to talk to her. The good news it that the Domestic Partner Expansion has passed the House. Now it just has to get through the Senate and then be signed by the Governor. If that happens then DPs will have all the rights as marriage.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Lcomnamtecktly and in a b**chy mood

I know that title does not make any sense right now and it still might not when I am done with this but to me it says it all.

Where the L comes in. I must be one of the few people who do not like the L Word. I watched the first season and the second one. I tried to watch the third but the story lines do not interest me. I don't know anyone who just hangs out with one group of people, I know one or two people who might be that good looking but not really. I have not seen four or five and I don't want to see them. I did like the story of Ivan, I wish they would have carried that one further. I also wish that they had made things more realistic.

I also do not find it cute, adorable, funny or any other adjective like that in combining two names to make one. I know that there are quite a few out there in both the "news" and on a few TV shows. I don't get that it is as if couplehood is the only thing that is to be recognized. I know and I hope that everyone should know that if a couple does not have individual interests the relationship will suffer.

I am also not a fan of catch phrases. Such as "Click it or ticket" or "Going Green". Who every came up with them needs to have their head cleaned out. I understand getting the message across to people, but do they have to make it sound so simple. Then again it could just be me hoping that people are not that stupid that they can understand something not in a two second sound bit.

I could keep going on and on and on.

Now on to technical difficulties. My computer has been acting wonky for about a year and I am tired of it so today I am going to put it in the shop to see if they can fix it. If not I might have them patch it until I can get another one. So I will have to go to the library until I get my laptop back. There I only have an hour a day at a time, so if I can get out a post I will. If not I will be reading them.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

LDR, Work and Food.

I know that there are some great things about being in a long distance relationship (LDR). One of the great things is that we talk when we can about all kinds of things. It has I think opened up a line of communication that might not be there if the relationship was not LD. She can't see unless I show her how messy my house is at the moment. For right now I think that is it about the good things about being in a LDR. No, I am not going to whine about it again, at least not for a while.

I applied for and might possibly have a job a "real" job at a local hospital. I do have a job now but it is one that has me spoiled in many ways. With my current job I don't have to worry about getting permission to take time off for anything. With the new one I will. That makes me feel like I'm in Jr High and need a pass to go and pee.

There are some good things about this new job. I know for some it would be that I am actually going to work full time and have a regular paycheck. Nope, I with in 30 days get benefits. Woohoo!!! I will have medical and dental and possibly optical. I am not sure what they are and what they are not but that will make some people happy.

The other good news is that I will be working 12 hour NOC's. 1900 to 0730 back on nights full time. Oh, I love working nights, not a lot of admins, therapists, family about. Work can actually get done.

So tonight as I am up all night again. I have made spaghetti sauce, it should be done at about late afternoon. The longer it simmers and cooks the better it tastes, then what I do as I make 6 quarts of the stuff. I freeze it. The recipe is from my grandmother and she got it from an old Italian man. Why he gave it to an Irish woman I will never know. I can tell you that for one batch it takes 8 cloves of garlic and 8 med onions. Oh, it smells so good cooking away.

Monday, February 16, 2009

LDR's Suck

I love my Honey, but I have to say that Long Distance Relationships suck. They suck, suck, suck.

Honey has been working 15 plus hours days this past month, and then going in on weekends all to get out reports on money. Oh and not real money this is numbers on paper money. Anyway, because she has been working so much and I am trying to work and the only shifts I have been getting are 12 hour nights we have not even had a good long conversation on the phone for almost a week.

Right now I don't want to talk to her. I want to hold her and look into her eyes and see that she is ok. Not all stressed out, exhausted from working all those long hours. I want to come home and snuggle up for a few minutes before she has to go into work and I fall asleep.

I just miss her so much. I know that she misses me too. I have to quit writing or I am going to start crying. I love you Honey.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Hobbies




There are a lot of hobbies out there to choose from. Some of the hobbies that are chosen are picked for us, I have a doll collection that my mom start for me when I was born. My sister it was music boxes, my brother baseball cards. My Honey has a glass collection.

Then there are the hobbies that we inflict upon ourselves some are costly and others are not. Many are time consuming. From woodworking to music to oh I don't know. I happen to do counted cross stitching, it is time consuming, can be very costly, frustrating and many many people think that is it just boring. One of the things I hear about my hobby is that "I don't have enough patience." I think that is a cop out patience can be learned. But that is a rabbit trail for another time.
That first picture is of The Last Supper by Leonardo da Vivci. The ruler is there to show the size of the project. When it is done I don't know what I am going to do with that one. I started it because someone I had heard did one and that it was huge took up most of a wall. I think that she did it in actual size. I am doing it as small as I can without working on a cloth called evenweave, I could have done it on linen as well but I don't like working on that either.
The other picture is one third done and it is called Day Surrendering Unto Night by Sheila Wolk. This one Honey loves and so I am doing it for her. She said when I am done with and we can be together she wants to hang it over our bed. There are some cross stitching that can be done in under 40 hours but not these. Day is taking me 6 hours to do 600 stitches.
When I am done with Day I am going to do some smaller faster ones before going on to something harder.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Book Club

Yesterday was the monthly book club meeting. For this month we read and discussed the book World Without Us, by Alan Weisman. This is not an overnight easy read, this is one of those books where a chapter a day is almost to much information at one time. The book is easily and well written for the lay person and not the scientists. The book is based on the premise that humans just vanished from the planet and what would happen to the earth based on the things that we have left behind.

Mr. Weisman writes about how long it would take for a city to be destroyed, how long it would take for the oil fields and refineries to burn if they burn, what plants and animals would survive etc. One thing that he did talked about that I am thinking of is a green burial.

Now, when one is buried there is a coffin, then a concrete box, and in some cases this is again enclosed in a metal box. Where even with embalming after so many years all this is protecting is human soup. In a green burial there is a hole dug, the body tossed in, buried where it can then nourish the earth like it should.

This month we are reading The Zero, by Jess Walter. I am only a few pages into this book and I can tell that I am going to have a hard time reading it. This book seems to be not focused, and written from inside a depressed mind (the main character). I have a hard time with books like that maybe because I work with a lot of people with mental disabilities. I don't know I will have to wait and see what happens.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Death

On Saturday I worked at a Hospice, when ever I work there I think of death. Not m death, but how people react to death. Everyone knows that all things must die eventually, and it always amazes me that for some death comes as a surprise. I am not referring to the sudden deaths that are from accidents, but the ones that come from a long fight with an illness. I don't know if people block out the fact that death is inevitable or if they think that some cure, or something is going to happen to bring their loved one back from the edge.

It also amazes me that some of the family members and friends go out of their way to support the staff. There are families who do everything for the patient except meds, then apologize to the nursing staff when the Rn's have to come in and change out the pain pumps.

It could be to that I just have a very different view of death than most people out there. I have always seen death not as an end but as the next step in the adventure of life. I do miss those who have gone one, but it is me that I feel sorry for the fact that I miss them, that I will never see them. Not that they will never see me, I don't know what they see. ( I would hate to know that they can watch me in the shower.)

Then there are the patients who come in and go out of our lives for just a day or even a few hours, and these people lead or guide us into a changed outlook of our lives. I never know who they are or where I am going to meet them, but I am grateful that they have come into my life.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

8 things

I am going crazy this week, all of my shifts so far have been cancelled. I know a forced vacation is great sometimes, and with my foot being sore who knows maybe a blessing. I have several shifts set up for next week and I pray I get them all. One or two a week is not enough to live on, all thought I am doing really good on not spending money. I don't go out so no spending. I think I might be going stir crazy.

As for my foot, the x-ray showed nothing broken, that gives me two options. One see a podiatrist or two wait until it hurts again then go see a podiatrist. I told my primary that I am going to wait because if it is soft tissue or nerve related they won't find anything when it is not acting up.

My sister over at Wonderfully Sew Knit tagged me for a meme. The rules are: to list 8 random things about myself, then tag 8 other blogger's. So here are random things about me.

1. My dream job would be to get paid to read. Just read.
2. I bite my nails.
3. I can kind of play the harmonica.
4. I hate the phrase "my bad" I think it makes people sound less intelligent than they are.
5. I love peanut butter.
6. I think that the geometric shape of trees is beautiful.
7. I like bad made for TV disaster movies.
8. I love gray cloudy rainy days.

This was harder than I thought it would be. Now according to the rules I am to tag 8 other blogger's for this meme. However, I don't know anyone that well. So I am going to leave it up to the blogger's out there. If you do this meme let me know.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Happy Birthday My Love, and other things


This picture was taken last year in Idaho. Over that bridge that we are standing on and up the trail is a field that at the time was full of blooming lupin flowers. In the middle of the field a picnic table, that is where Honey and I got engaged. I know that if we were to go there today it would be covered in snow. She is so beautiful my Honey. (She is the one with the red hair.)

Today is my Honeys birthday. I thought long and hard about what I wanted to get her and what I wanted to get her was not, because of the distance, what I could give her. So I got her music. I gave her a wide selection of tunes that I hope she will like. I think that when she listens to them she will like them. I miss her so much, I wish that I could have gone down for her birthday. Maybe next year we will spend the day together. So Honey, Happy Birthday, I love you.

I am hoping that I have a broken foot. I know that sounds so bad, but with a broken foot I can get a walking cast and still work. I just won't be able to drive with it on. The other options are not as favorable, there is a neurological symptom that could be causing this pain when I walk, and it is only when I walk. Oh about the apartment it is not bad, however when I go out to the store I can't make it to the back of the store without having to stop and rest.

So I went on Friday to the doctor and paid him $103 to tell me that I needed an x-ray. Well, DUUUUHHHH!!! So on Tuesday I have the x-ray done then on Thursday I go and see if it is possibly broken. The doc did give me a prescription for a pain reliever. No, not a narcotic he asked if I wanted one and I said no. I would rather hurt that sit in the corner and drool. That is reserved for after sex, but I did not tell him that.

Anyway, I went to Walgreen's to get the RX filled and realized that there is a Walgreen's syndrome. I am not immune to it, I know that my sister is not. Plus I watched as several people leaving the store had the same problem. No matter what I go in to the pharmacy for I leave having bought a candy bar. My sister does to, and I noticed several other people do as well. I think they put something in the air filters, or under the music.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

A Good Busy Day

Today was a good day. I got up late but not so late that I could not fix a cup of coffee on my way out the door. I went to the DOMA protest here in Olympia, it was rather small about 30 people but it was also about 34F at 10:30. I was so cold my hands, toes, and tail were cold. There were speeches and things to sign all around. I do wish that there had been more participants but it was cold.

After the rally a group of us went over to Mia Cassa and had some of the best pizza that I have had in a while. There was one vegetarian potato that was soooo good. One of the women there had in her younger days met Harvey Milk, I was 8 when he was shot and I find his story fascinating I wonder what would have happened if he had not been shot and killed. But, I am getting ahead of myself. She had some pictures that she passed about, that were taken of her at a party that Mr. Milk held.

I tracked down a theater that is showing Milk. So I hauled my brother off to see it, he did not say much about the movie when it was over. I loved it, I wish that I could have meet that man. But, like I said I was only 8 when he was killed. My Honey remembers the marches, better than I do as she was there when they happened.

I am now up waiting for the carrot cake to get done. I was given about 40 pound of carrots last week and I thought that carrot cake would be good. As I do not like raisins I do not put them in cake, cookies or most anything. I did put pecans in there. I can make the frosting in the morning when the cake is cool. Yummy.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

I think I need a boat

My son txted me today with a message that made my heart sing and I have told almost everyone that I know. He got his report card and has made the honor roll. Two B's and all the rest A's. For those who have to know he got the B's in English and History. I am so happy for him I just want to yell YAHOOOOO!!!!

Last night when I went to bed it was raining. When I got up it was raining, when I did laundry it was raining, when I went to work it was raining. It has now almost been 24 hours of rain. I don't know how much rain we have gotten I don't want to know. What I do know is that I need a boat to get any where south and passably north.

When I was at work the news was on and there was a possibility of closing I-5 at exit 88, that was the plan at 4:30 to close the freeway at midnight. They actually shut it down much earlier than that, around 5:30 or 6pm. When the hospital sent me home early I was so happy, I got in the car and was listening to the radio and they were talking about closing the freeway at Fife, then passably in Tacoma because of the Puyallup river.

My brother and I had a lot of fun making fun of the weather. Quoting movie lines and joking about the only thing we have not have happen this winter.

So as things now stand I am stuck here. The passes ALL that passes are closed avalanche risks. I-5 south is closed flooding, north might or might not be open. The only way out of here now is to fly or take a boat.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

A Trip and missing Honey

I know I should write more than I do, but there are times when I am to tired to write or even think. This past weekend I went to Portland, and for dinner we all went to Kenny & Zukes for dinner. All I have to say is yummy. My uncle and I split Ruben's he ordered the pastrami and I went for the Corn Beef. Then he had half of mine and I had half of his.

Spent some time with the puppies they are now 6 weeks old and a handful. For some reason the computer is not loading pictures so on my next day off when I am not swamped with things to do I will get my laptop to the library and post some.

Today I went birthday shopping for Honey, what I got her will have to stay a secret until she gets them. What I want to get her is not what I got her. I would love to take her away for the weekend and just be with her. But, that is not possible. I miss her so much that it hurts, I know that long distance relationships are not easy, but I did not expect this hole inside me. It also does not help that I have been working a lot of evening shift so that talking to her is not happening every night and that makes the missing her harder.

Friday, January 02, 2009

Boxes

Today was the day for boxes. My son got his today and he said that he liked the Darth Tater. I had to get him one and send it to him. In the box was an Xbox 360, games, and some cords that went with it. I think that the Darth Tater was the best.

I got my Christmas box from Honey today. The delivery was late because of all the snow that we had. In the box was the best gifts. Honey got me Brian Froud's World of Faerie book. I love Brian Froud's art work, my sister bought me Lady Cottington's Pressed Faerie Book. If you have never heard of him it is a good time to check out is work. I will be the first to admit that it is not for everyone, but then I am not into the impressionists. His site is here if you want to check it out.

My brother got me something that thought I would never see. He got me a copy of North. This movie is just so cute. It is not out on DVD so he got me a VHS copy, that is OK. It is in good condition and a great movie.

Tomorrow, I am going down to Portland and if I remember to take my camera I can get pictures of Lucy's baby's. My aunt is calling them the mess makers. I told her that puppies poop a lot, that is what they do. Eat, look cute, and poop.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Mac and Cheese Pizza

It is the end of the year and people everywhere are viewing and reviewing their lives and what has happened to them. I have never been one to look back, to wonder what had changed about me and what has not. So instead of mulling over the past I am going to talk about what I had for dinner tonight.

I made Mac and Cheese pizza. I will admit that I used some things that I bought but it was good for a first attempt next time I am going to add onion and more bacon. So how did I make this master of pizza. It was easy. What is needed is:

One Boboli
1/4 to 1/2 cup Cheeze Whiz
1 TBS butter
1 TBS flour
1 cup milk
1 cup cheese
2 cups cooked pasta
3 or more slices cooked crumbled bacon
1/2 cup grated cheese of your choice

Start with the crust. I used Boboli, then for the sauce a thin covering of Cheeze Whiz ( I know, I know but it was the only thing I could think of that would work) Heat the oven according to the Boboli package.

Boil water and salt to cook the pasta, cook pasta to just al dente. When done drain pasta, while the pasta is cooking prepare the following sauce.

In a smaller pan melt 1 Tablespoon (TBS) butter. When the butter is melted stir in 1 TBS flour. When flour and butter are well combined slowly stir in one Cup milk. When the milk sauce is warm, add one cup grated Cheddar cheese (the pre-grated does not melt or blend as well for this sauce), add drained cooked pasta to this sauce.

Spoon on to the prepared Boboli, add crumbled cooked bacon, and top with more grated cheese.

This is great for kids who love pizza, and Mac&Cheese.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Yesterday and last night

My son was to have flown from Tucson to Seattle. The flight out of Tucson was running about 20 minutes late, that with all the weather that we in the norther states are having. Just as he landed in Los Vegas for the lay over all flights to Seattle were canceled. It is hard to explain about all of the worry and stress I had trying to get him someplace safe. I know that he is 17 and is still a minor, I also know that some people see him and don't think about his age. They see someone who is almost an adult, but that is not the case. At 17 he can make some choices but if he were to have gotten stuck in Nevada he would have had to stay at the airport as he is not old enough to register for a hotel room.

I have to say that for all my worrying, and fussing the people at Southwest were wonderful. They got him a flight back to Tucson. He did have to hang out at the airport for several hours, and that of course had me calling him every 30 minuets to see if he was OK. He got back into Tucson after midnight. I am just so thankful that he is OK that he got back.

Thank God that he did not end up in a shelter like the people stuck at the bus depot in Seattle.

I also don't know if his plans would have worked out anyway. We are having power outages, side streets are a mess, and it is snowing again. We have over a foot of snow and more is falling as I write this. We did loose power last night, it was only for a few hours. I woke up to darkness, and silence at about 4am. I did not know how long the power had been out but I knew that there were a few things I had to do.

I ran into the bathroom, opened the counter door, turned the water on so that the pipes would not freeze. Then I went into the kitchen and filled the hot water bottle full of hot water, thank goodness we still had hot water in the tank. I wrapped that in a towel, then took the heat lamp off of Gex's aquarium, put the hot water bottle in the tank and covered it with a blanket to help keep him warm. Left some cold water on in the kitchen and then went back to bed.

When I woke up this morning, the power was on, and I was burning a hole in the floor. I had forgotten to turn the heat lamp off when I put it on the ground. I now have a melted carpet, BUT I have a kid that is safe, and a live lizard. Woohoo!!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Update

We are getting more snow. I know that is not a surprise to some of you but to us it is. I know that the weather reports have been saying that we are to get more but it is one of those cases where seeing is believing. In the last 2 hours we have gotten 4 inches and they are saying that we might get up to 12 new inches of snow here tonight.

The trees are full of the stuff, and my brother and I have prepared for the eventuality of power outages. If the weather warms up just a little bit then we will have freezing rain and that will cause power lines and trees to break. I hope that it does not come to that but chances are it might.

On the work front, I managed to get in 4 hours this week. WooooHoooo! I feel as if I am going brain dead. With all the accidents on the roads one would think that the hospitals would need staff. Guess not.

My insomnia seems to be gone. Honey, talked me through a sleeping exercise that worked it. No not that kind get your minds out of the gutter. It worked so well that I took a nap this afternoon and still fell rested. Thank you Honey.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Things swept to the back of the news

I read this article and I am can't write about it. It just upsets me to much, I hope that they catch the bastards who did this. This is not something for the squeamish to read. Sorry, but I had to pass it along.

Insomnia

I have not been sleeping and when I do it is for no more than four hours at a time. At first I thought that it had to do with the stress that December brings. This year there are a lot of stresses, first there is the lack of work 24 hours in 2 weeks. Then there is weather, snow and ice and the coldest it has been in over 20 years. Adding on to that I do not like to fly and my son is flying out here on Sunday, the day when the storm is to be the worst. He is a minor and flying by himself I know that he will be OK but I still worry.

Then for me it is that time of the month. The first time I called it Aunt Flo around Honey I thought she was going to hurt herself she was giggling so hard.

Then I realized that part of what is keeping me up are the worries, the fears, and Aunt Flo does not help. However, that is not the largest contributor. Plain and simple I miss Honey. Every night when I go to bed I dream about holding her, listening to her sleep. I miss her and that is why I am not sleeping. I want to hold her, to feel her next to me.