Some People

Last week I worked on a floor of the hospital that I get to work on every once in a while. I like working there it is busy, it flows and the nurses have time to help with patient care. So last week Patient A (now going to be referred to as PA) was admitted. PA is 97, has dementia to the point of only being oriented to self, and is jaundice. None of those is a cause to be admitted to the hospital.

I should explain that oriented to self means that the person does not know where they are, what year it is, who anyone is. All they know is that they are there, no one or nothing else exists. This is a very simple definition but it works.

So, back to PA. PA is in for a blood transfusion that is it, the patent is not eating, hardly drinks anything and just hollers for CG. PA yells for CG so loudly that the shouts can be heard over the entire floor. Now, there is a CG (short for caregiver, a personal one) none of the nursing staff has ever seen this CG the entire time that PA has been in the hospital, and it has been over a week.

I am telling you this is that CG is getting the entire staff at the hospital angry with him. Why?

The reason is simple, PA is in the last stages of life, and needs to go on to the Summer land. What we at the hospital are doing is worse than torture. PA does not understand the reason behind turning so not to get bedsores, does not understand taking of blood for labs, or the machines that peep all the time, or why strangers come in and out doing things. PA does know that this is scary and has no control over what is happening.

PA's power of attorney is CG. CG is a paid caregiver not a relative. The longer PA is alive the more money CG will get. The Dr. said that the only reason PA is in the hospital is because CG wants the money, and that CG is tired of dealing with PA. However, if PA goes into long term care then CG gets no cash ola.

OK so this post does not make a lot of sense. I just wanted to rant about how some people need to get their heads out of the money train a$$, and take a look at real life.

I am a Gemini

I think that my twins in the realm of Gemini are more like sextuplets.

On New Years Eve, a friend (H) and I went to Tugboat Annies for an Irish Hooley, that involves music, food, and drink. The Hooley started at 2pm and was to get over at 4pm midnight in Dublin. On the way there I decided to take the freeway, wrong choice it was dead stopped. So off to the surface streets I go. Now, H and I were to meet up at 12:45 to get to the restaurant by 1:00.

I hate to be late, hate it hate it hate it. So off on the streets I go. I have 10 minutes to get to her house and then ten to get to the restaurant. I will make it. Nope. This is what happened and shows just how crazy this girl can get.

At the first traffic light I come to I am the second car in the line. The light is green and the car in front of me is sitting there with the left turn signal on. We, are in the GO STRAIGHT lane. My phone rings and here is what I can remember of the conversation.

"Hello", I say.

"Hi." Its my brother. "Did you pay something on the ----- bill?"

"SONOFABITCH!!! Yes I did but I did not have the code so that I could not see the full amount."

"That is great, I went to pay it and most of it was taken care of." he says.

"Good how much was left on the bill? MOTHERFOGETTHEHELLOUTOFMYWAY!!" HOOOONK!!!!" Do I have to pay anymore or is it OK for now?"

"No its good. Are you honking your horn?"

"Yes, some DIPSHITFCKWAD is in the lane in front of me and won't go. He wants to turn left from the straight lane." HOOOOONNNNKKKK!!! "MOVEYOURASSYOUBASTARD!!! Shit the light just turned red."

"Oh OK, good to see that drivers are the same everywhere."

"Why the hell can't he pull up and turn around in the store on the corner?"

"I think that would be to easy."

"WOOHOOO! The left turn light just turned and he turned left in front of an SUV came inches from being hit."

"Well, thanks for paying on the bill, I will talk to you later."

"K. Bye."

Yippie!!!

The holidays are over. Life can get back to normal and I will fell like a human again, able to go and hang out at the bookstores and not get mobbed, get a cup of coffee and not have to rush because everyone else is in a hurry.

I worked the holidays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and I work again tonight. I don't mind I mean it is just me and the animals. So this year I did not even decorate, kill a tree or any of that. It felt wonderful, I do admit that I missed the smell of the tree in the house but then to get that smell all I have to do is open the windows.

Mabon is becoming more relaxed around me. I don't know if her past owners were mean to her or not but she is just now starting to play with other things besides the red bug.

I hung my new calender up today. Honey got it for me for Christmas it is a Nene Thomas I love her art work.

I have been exhausted, the management decided that it would be a good time to trim all of the trees on the property. That is great but they did not give notice that the noise level was going to explode, if they had I would not have picked up extra shits. If I call out on an extra shift the hospital won't let me work over time for a year. Arrrggg!!!! It frustrates me to think about it. Oh well, they are not here today and I am off to bed. Night all.

Why I have not been posting.

There are sugar cookies, flour less chocolate-walnut cookies, chocolate covered cherries cookies, molasses cookies, peppermint bark, and not pictured dark chocolate peppermint bark, peanut brittle.

Like Most

Like most people at this time of year I have no desire to write, or not much of one.

Two weeks ago Honey came up for a visit I am so tired of being so far apart but for now I can't afford to move and well she can't. When she was here I realized that when we do get to finally be together that it will work out. I was afraid that it would not because she does not like Brussels Sprouts, but I realized that we can work around that. No, the week went very well. We went out to breakfast at my favorite breakfast restaurant the New Moon Cafe. Then wandered about downtown, going where we both wanted to. I did make her go into the comic book store, I am such a geek.

Then at night we made dinner, read to each other. I bought her a copy of my favorite Christmas book The Best Christmas Pageant Ever by Barbara Robinson. We read that to each other while drinking some really good petite Shara. We watched a movie or two, and just hung out. I loved that week. It seems like forever ago.

Today the 29Th my son turns 18, so I am making me a cake as I am the one who did all of the work. Packing him around for 9+ months (he was 3 weeks late), puking my guts out, pushing out a nine pound kid out of a little tiny hole, and he was just there for the ride. So, I am making me a Red Velvet Cake my most favorite cake in the world. Then later today myself and some friends of ours are going to try and utterly humiliate him, long distance as he is going to school in another state.

Mabon, my cat is getting use to me. She in starting to sleep on the bed and become more playful.

Work is... I hate working during the holidays. Do you know what the major complaint of people coming to the hospital is during this time of year? Nausea and vomiting!!! Big surprise, OD on turkey, pie, other rich foods and drinks. Then what happens, the body revolts. All, we can do unless it is something like pancreatitis or appendicitis is let them puke in a bucket and give I.V fluids until all the food and drink is gone. Sorry, about that rant.

Jude, you have my support and I am pulling for you.

Next week I work 6 days. Whoohoo 6 twelve hour shifts, two on, one off, four on. I think I am going to say something stupid to a patient. I hope not. I will have to remember to write up a post about my work pet peeves sometime.

Well, I need a nap before I start the cake and the rest of my day.

Veterans Day

Thank you to our Veterans. You make my heart soar, and weep. Thank you for all that you have done, will do and will continue to do.

A Storm

When I went to bed today I was laying there almost asleep when thunder shook my windows it was so loud that I thought I was going to have to duck and cover. Then I heard what I thought was someone tossing rocks at my window. It was not rocks, all I can say is that I am glad my car was under the carport.

I Think I was Drunk When I did This

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After

October 23

Today my dad would have been 74. He has been gone now for 4 years this December, just before Christmas. I still miss him.

This Man Made Me Cry

Maine is fighting for marriage rights. I know that Pam' House Blend has been doing some wonderful reports on what is going on there. I saw this video over at her place and Mr. Spooner I just want to say thank you.

I tried to get the video to upload on here but I could not do it. I will have to figure it out when I am not so worn out. So here is the link to see and hear what Mr. Phillip Spooner said. It is well worth the three minutes to watch.

This man is a hero in so many ways, not just because he supports Marriage Equality, or that he is a WWII Veteran. But because he is both.

National Coming Out Day

I have read some of the other coming out stories that people have posted on blogs and I love reading them. So in honor of Nation Coming Out Day, I am going to post about mine. I am going to post about the hardest one that I had to come out to, myself.

When I was about 19 I got married, just because I thought that is what I was supposed to do. After I got married I got pregnant and I would not change having my son for anything. He was the best thing to happen to me. When I was about 4 months pregnant I moved to another state and my soon to be ex followed for about a week, then he left. After the divorce I had no interest in being in a relationship, even the thought of dating a man had no interest for me. I just thought that it was from having that failed marriage.

Years went by; I mean like 15 no dates, no desire to go out on one. I thought, still being the good girl, that men were my only option. It is not that I don’t like men, I do, they are great to tease, watch football with, or play video games with.

Then one day I was online in a chat room and started talking to this person. She and I would be online most nights at about the same time, as would another girl. After about a year there was a concert that we all wanted to go to in Idaho. So we decided that we were going to meet there. At that first meeting nothing happened we just became closer friends. As the next year went by we began talking on the phone more, less online.

Then three months before a bunch of us (7) were to get together in New Jersey, I thought I had fallen in love with her. I did convince myself that it was not love but a deep friendship, that the only reason that I was feeling that love was because it had been 15 years, and I was lonely. Then came the trip, boy was I wrong.

Talk about an identity crisis. Every time I looked at her I got the shakes, my insides would turn all quivery and not in a good way. I was terrified, of her of me. Everyone kept asking what was wrong was I ok. How could I tell them, these were people that I knew, people that I trust and that trusted me?

When I was finally able to talk to her about what I was feeling, what I was going through. She said that she wished she could help me, that I was her friend and that seeing me torn up like this was hurting her. But, she did not love me that way. I cried myself to sleep in the Philly airport when she got on the plane to go back to CA.

For three more months we talked and emailed, and as those months rolled along I became more comfortable with myself, my new found truth. Then one day, three months later she told me that she loved me too. That was about three years ago, she is now my Honey. As for me I am happier than I have ever been.

So I came out to myself at age 36.

HELP! I need advice.

Each October I buy a new breast cancer tee shirt. I have one that says "Caught you looking at my tatas", "boobs rock", and "My lucky tatas". I love these shirts I do get dirty looks wearing them or I get people who really like them. I do like the dirty looks the best. This year however, I did not see any in the women's shirts that I like so I went to see what Save the Tatas have for men. I have found three that I like.

I would get all three of them, but I am in desperate need of new scrubs for work and those are not cheap so I am limited to one. I would like some input on the shirts that I am thinking about. Here is #1 Tee shirt and this is # 2 Tee shirt and this is #3 Tee shirt.

So if you want to vote for a Tee, just leave a message in the comments.

So What is in you Music Player

I was listening and uploading more songs to my ipoop and it got me wondering what else or who else others are listening to. I have songs that I change out on mine and some that will never get taken off. So here is a list of what is always and stays on my iPoop.

Chick Habit by April March
Mercy by Duffy the acoustic version
Closer to Fine by The Indigo Girls with Brandi Carlile acoustic version
Short Skirt/Long Jacket by Cake
One by Metallica
I Don't Feel Like Dancin' by Scissor Sisters
Come on Eileen by Dexie's Midnight Runners
Thought the Fire and Flames by Dragonforce
No More Cloudy Days by The Eagles
The Joker and Hallelujah by k d lang
(I'll Be Glad When You're Dead) You Rascal You by Louie Armstrong
Crazy Train by Ozzy Osbourn
Orange Sky by Alex Murdoch
Come to My Window by Melissa Etheridge the acoustic version
The Boxer by Carbon Leaf the acoustic version

So what songs stay on you music player?

Brain Deadedness and Some Good News

OK, so I know that deadedness is not a work. However, that seems to be where I am stuck at right now. I don't even know if that is the proper term for what I am not feeling. I am an avid reader, in a typical day I can easily get through 2 books of 300+ pages. Lately I have not been able to get thought one. Even my favorite author holds no interest for me and I have been waiting for his new book for months now.

I know I am not depressed, I have been there before and this is not the same. It is not a lack of attention span. It is almost as if I have read, seen or done every thing that there is. I want something new and there is nothing new out there. Even games that I love are holding no interest for me.

I think I need to see about taking a class somewhere for something. Maybe take up painting, or pottery making, or ASL or something.

The good news is that in November Honey is coming up here. I am so excited it seems like forever sense I last saw her. I actually think it was 4 years ago, I know it was only in September but still that was years and years ago.

Oh for those of you in Washington state if there is anyone else out there from here. Remember to vote Approve on Ref 71.

Queasy

I had a long sarcastic post I was going to write up. I will have to do that later. Someone who knows better came to work sick, just because she did not want to call in. Now I am not feeling well nothing major, just a queasy in the stomach. So I don't really want to concentrate on any thing harder watching bad made for TV disaster movies.

I think I am going to go back to the couch.

Hot Chocolate

Some of you wanted my hot chocolate recipe. So I will type it up below but there are a few words of warning.

The first two ingredient's CANNOT be changed or substituted. If they are the bonding process does not work right and the chocolate is not smooth.

This is also very very fattening. I only make it when I have company over or go to a friends house. The recipe makes one measuring cup of the drink, this does not seem like a lot but because of the richness and the fat content I can drink about 1/4 of that and be happy.

Hot Chocolate or Mouth Orgasm in a Cup.

1/2 cup whole milk
1/2 cup heavy cream
3.5 oz dark or bitter sweet chocolate.

Simmer milk and cream until hot but not boiling. Add small chunks of the chocolate and stir until melted.

That is it. I do for my chocolate use the Lindt Dark Chili Chocolate bar, the chili adds something to the flavor and makes it just a bit better. I am very serious about not substituting the milk and the heavy cream for something with a lower fat content. The milk fats help with the chocolate and using a lesser fat content the flavor, thickness, and texture of the drink changes.

For those out there who might think about using fat free half and half don't. Fat Free half and half is nothing but skim milk with thickener. Anyway enjoy.

Meet Mabon

I went to the animal jail, and paid bond on an inmate. So this is Mabon. I don't know when she was born but she is full grown and does nothing but purr. Her previous slaves were mean to her and had her toes cut off so. So she is now in jail in a 2 bedroom apartment and not a small cell.

What is this

The trip to NJ.

I got to Seatac and guess what my flight was delayed 20 min. That meant I would not make my connection in Oakland, I was going to meet Honey there and then we were going to fly out together to Denver, then Philly. I got a fight routing me to Denver so Honey and I meet up there and went on to Philly. The flights were OK but they are doing a huge renovation at the Philly airport and as I do not get out of my seat once I am in a plane it was quite fun waiting in line for the Portapotty.

Honey and I took a shuttle to B's house in Egg Harbor Twp. The Twp is to be short for Township to me it looks and sounds like twerp. So we to the house about 1am, relaxed talked a bit then off to bed.

In the morning Honey and I took B's car and went out shopping we both had things in mind that we wanted to make. Honey did most of the cooking and I know that she likes it. I did make fried green tomatoes and my hot chocolate. It had B moaning as she drank it and I told her that she has mouth orgasms. That made her turn bright red.

One thing that we found in her yard was a fungus that might just might be a east coast thing. I have never seen one like and Honey and I have spent the week trying to find out what it is. The thing is about a foot in diameter the pictures are above. The one at the top is a close up. Can anyone tell me what this thing is?

Gone a week

I took my laptop to NJ with me and then found out that I could not get online at all. Even the Internet at my friends house was not working so I have been playing catch up on all things net wise that I do. So I am just going to give bullet points on the post until I get back into the swing of things.

No Internet sucked. What did I ever do before it was invented.

A week gone means changes when I get home. One big one is that a blogger I read has made her blog invite only and now I can't read her anymore and I loved reading about her life in Texas.

The fight out was delayed so I had to make another connection. Thank goddess I did not have to pay to be rerouted.

NJ was hot and humid, wish I would have had more time to check out some more antique shops. Went to the Borgada I just don't understand gambling. Next time I will take a book and try and find a quiet corner to read in.

Got all my fights back OK. On the last one there was a crazy woman. More about her later.

Now I have to start thinking about getting back to work today.

Recovering Kind of

I worked 4 12 hour shifts and then a 5th shift that was 6 hours. It was a work week from hell. Three out of the 5 nights we had someone fall, had a death, had lots and lots of isolation patients.

What I want to know is why the people who fall are not the 90lb 100 year old women but the 200+ lb men who are in their 60s. It is not fun picking their butts off the ground. Then they have the gaul to laugh and try and grab my boobs. I get to go back to this joy Thursday.

I was going to post more Sand in the City pictures but have decided that a little b!t(hing would be better for me. I am still sore and want to sleep, but I know if I do I will be up all day then have to stay up all night for work.

I wish this town had an all night coffee shop or book store.