Boring, the Kid and blood

I really don't have much to say this week. It has been one that is just there. Nothing exciting happened. There was one unusual thing that did take place on Thursday I came home and slept for 12 hours if not more. I was not the only one who was exhausted that night. Honey went to bed early and she never does that. Our friend NJ was exhausted as well. For that to all occur on the same day is strange but I think we all needed the sleep.

Next weeks planes to be a bit more exciting. I am going out to a bar, and it is spring break that week so I get to listen to the boy start whining about being bored on Monday. He is old enough to get a job but I would like him to wait until the summer as all working adults know once you start it is work, work and more work.

He is looking at what he wants to do in the future and I am proud of him for that. I know that he wants an office job and I understand that. I also know that he understands that I am not financially able to send him to a college. So he is looking into apprenticeships in the construction industry so he can earn a descent wage and still attend a college. Go Kid.

I do have one exciting thing to talk about. I did not see it I heard about it. At work yesterday I was in the bowels of hell, I also picked the wrong time to go to lunch. Someone was dropped off at our door. With the jugular artery slit. There was much running about and blood. Why do I miss all the excitement? I do feel bad of the person that this happened to, and I know that they are ok for now. It is not the blood that is exciting it is the learning of how to care for an injury like that. That I missed out on.

Thoughts on a week

During the week I have so many thoughts that I want to post about and then when I finally get a chance to be on the computer I cannot remember most of them. I am sure that some of them are mundane "things" that happen during the work day. I am going to have to start keeping paper with me so I can make notes to myself.

I do know one of the things I want to put on here is about my girlfriend. What I want to write about is one of the reasons that I love her. We have a mutual friend who is not feeling well, and due to the medication that she is taking has gained some weight. My Honey who hates to shop went out and found her some clothes that will fit, and then mailed them off. Not only is she generous but she keeps my head out of the clouds, well most of the time.

I miss her so much. It is hard to have her so far away, I know that right now this is where we both need to be. I can deal with that.

Not about food

My girlfriend who I miss so much was going to come up and see me in about two weeks. I was planing on taking her to some of my favorite places. I do know that not having seen her for so long chances are all she would get to see was what was on the drive from the airport to the hotel and then back.

She is now not coming out here and so our plans have to change. She is being sent to another state for a convention I get to go with her. The thing that is going to disappoint me the most is that she has to be in these meetings. I know it is all a part of life and having a relationship. I do understand that but I want to be selfish and keep her to myself. We have such short time together.

I was talking to a friend of mine about it and if I did not have the commitment that I now have up here. I would pack and move as soon as I could. We talk on the phone every night, but I am lonely for her. I am lonely for her touch, to see her wake in the morning, to tease her, to share my life with her.

I miss you my love.

Sweetness times 3

Just some articles on HFCS, and how it works. To be fair I have listed a site that supports HFCS as well.

http://www.hfcsfacts.com/?gclid=CNPt9vm5kpICFQRaiAodZgzMNg

http://www.sprol.com/?p=236

http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/health/2002658491_healthsyrup04.html

Sweetness times two

I have given up High Fructose Corn Syrup (HFCS), not as an experiment but as a life style change. In doing this for what is now just over a week I have noticed several things, changes, or whatever you want to call them.

The first is change that I have noticed is that I feel better, I am sleeping better, and I have more energy. For me the biggest plus is the sleeping. I have not been a good sleeper at night for a long time and now I am getting at least 6 or more solid hours of sleep a night. This I know has a lot to do with the increase in energy and the feeling better.

I have also noticed that I have a craving, and not for something specific. I don't want chocolate, candy, cake or ice cream. I just want something sweet. That is in its self odd, when I want something it is usually for something specific. So I am wondering if there is some type of withdrawal from the HFCS. I am going to have to do some more looking into this.

I am also looking and searching for good recipes for easy portable snack items. Yes, I know all about fruits and veggies. I do take them with me however, there are times that I want a granola bar, or something along those lines. Things that I cannot find with out HFCS in them I am looking to make and replace them with homemade items. I know that doing this will make me and my family healthier. I do know to that all of this cooking will take time and it will force me to slow down in my life that might be a good thing too.

The other sweetness is that the Governor signed the Domestic Partnership act. What this does is increases the legal benefits of same sex partners. This will cover things like, probate, trust, community property, homestead exemptions, guardianship and powers of attorney. This will also give domestic partners the right NOT to testify against their partner. This expands on the law passed last year that covered hospital visitation, inheritance rights when there is no will, the right to ask for an autopsy and decide on organ donation.

The law also covers ending the partnerships. That is set up much like a divorce, where property, children, debts ext. are considered by the secretary of state IF under 5 years. If the partnership is more than 5 years then the couple would go before superior court.

To count or prove a domestic partnership couples must share a home, be at least 18 and not married or partnered with someone else. All of this goes into effect June 12th.

Oh the Sweetness of it ALL

A trip down diet lane is like walking through a war zone. Everyone has their own opinion on what is to be eaten or not. Do eat bacon, don't eat bacon, only real butter, no only fake butter. Treats of candy no treats at all, meat, no meat. Eat veggies don't eat the (fill in a color) of food here. With all of this going on and what they are finding out about how the body works and what is does with food it should not be so confusing WRONG.

At work I get asked a lot "How fast will I heal?" The answer is very simple I don't know. Why? It is because my body will react to something very differently then yours will. There is no right answer. I think that is the same thing with diet and exercise. I like to lift weights but when I do I end up looking like Popeye. My son who lifts weights just tones up.

With that in mind at least the diet part I have decided to give up one thing. High Fructose Corn Syrup, it is a lot harder then it sounds. That stuff is in everything from canned veggies to BBQ sauce, soda, and well just read a label on something. What makes this hard is finding things that HFCS is not in. It is even in the so called diet items. There is a great article on this in the San Francisco Chronicle (see link). There is also a lot more reading out there on the web about it. One of the things it does is make you want to eat more than you think you should or want to. Anyway, don't believe me read up on it.

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/chronicle/archive/2004/02/18/FDGS24VKMH1.DTL

This week vs Today

Last week was bad. I worked in a nursing home where on day shift Ihad 14 people to get up for breakfast. Breakfast starts at 745, I getthere at 600. Talk about alot of stress. I mean how can one person dototal care on 10 people (4 could do much of it by themselves) in anhour and 45 minutes. This all includes, potty, washing up, brushingteeth, combing hair, dressing, any equipment they might need, andfilling portable O2 tanks. It is not possable. To get all of thisdone in under 2 hours leaves alot of care out. Plus in Washingtonstate it it illegal for a CNA to fill to O2 up. However the nurses refuse to do it. So the patients get O2 or not. I am not ever goingback there again.

Some of you know that I have a Honey. Well, the other day we weretalking and I was told I needed to go to the beach to relax. I wouldhave loved to have gone to the ocean but as gas is so HIGH, and Iwould have to be back to get the boy I only went to the state park.Getting out into nature was what I needed Honey was right. This iswhere I went, the picture is not all that great but the park waswonderful. One day I will get a digital camera and get pics that Iwant up here.http://www.parks.wa.gov/parkpage.asp?selectedpark=Tolmie&pageno=1

NOt what I was going to post about

I was going to try and post something about work, my life, lack of sex, and more. However I am at the library sitting next to me is a woman who has so much perfum on that it is making it difficult to breath. I understand that after a while people cannot smell what they put on they become accustom to it. But, she must have used at least half the bottle this morning. WOW!

Now on to the more important things. I now have internet at home, it is only on my brothers computer so bloging from there is still a bit difficult. The library is the best bet. Here with the privacy screens at least no one can read over my shoulder as I type or read up on what is going on in the world (read blogs that I don't want the Boy to see).

Work is work nothing earthshattering there. My life right now is about work, I do know I need to go shopping for a new bra and underwear, as for lack of sex. Not much I can do about that until I can move.

Razors

In December I went to LV with my girlfriend on the trip back the airport security took my toothbrush and my razor. They took the toothbrush because I had take the battery out of it, and who knows why the took my Gillete Sensor for Women.

I liked that razor it had a soft rubbery handle and was wide so that when it got wet it did not get sleppery. So when I find that I need to replace this wonderful tool that I have had for years all I could find was the Venus. So I bought one, and being me I got the one that vibrates. I did not like it at all. The handle when it got wet became almost impossable to hold onto. I know there are some women out there with smaller hands than what I have but for me with at 5foot 9 and having what is called a large bone structure. The small slippery handle just was not working. Also when I did use the vibrating option I got razor burn. So I thought what the hell, and gave it another shot. Nope same thing diffrent leg.

I then went shopping with a friend and found a Schick that had a wide handle, a gippy handle and cost a good deal less then the other razor. Why when something is working and doing well do companies get a bug up their profet and change what is working to something that is not?

Baking

For some reason I am on a muffin baking kick this week. My girl sent me a recipe that looks good for a sweet muffin. Maple Walnut, it uses real maple not the kind that is to sweet and flavored. So when I get home I am going to make up a batch of this kind. The other day I made, blueberry and also a dried cranberry one. Both turned out good. I did like the blueberry better as I used frozen berry's and they do have more juice than dried fruit. But I have to bake with what is available. Next year if I remember to I am going to grab up a bunch of cranberry's and freeze them so if I need any for anything I can have nearly fresh ones.

computers again

This time, I have an hour or so at the library. It is driving me crazy, now I have no Internet access at home. Both computers have died and it will take a while as I have other things to pay for.

The trip to LV was a blast. I did not gamble or see any shows but I did spend one whole day in bed. That is all you need to know about that.

Oh going to days is working out well. I am still worn out on my days off and would just like to sleep in all day. I cannot allow that to happen IF I did I would be up all night again. So I have to make my self get up and go do things.

I am going to start actively looking for a couch now. I am tired of not having any furniture.

Weeks

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The past few weeks I have been trying to get off night shift and on to days. It makes for an intersting change. I am sleeping but am still worn out and I know that it will take quite a while to get back into the "normal" lifestyle.

Sunday I am going to LV with my girlfriend I can't wait. We have not seen each other in about 6 months. No, I will not go into detale on what happens on that trip. Whatever happens will, and I am looking forward to that.

K had a Christmas concert on the 10th it was a good one. Not to long and just enought people there to enjoy it.

Getting to the library and getting a computer with working days is a bit harder, so posting might come more speratic. No worries tho when I can get one I will.

Thanksgiving and gifts

For Thanksgiving we went to Portland. It was the usually ball of fun, dinner, laughter, not enough sleep. The day after we went to an outlet mall south of Portland. I did not buy anything, the boy got a hoody and a wallet. I do think that he could have done better on the wallet but it was his choice. In the evening my cuz and I went to Powells. The one downtown, I love that place. When my girlfriend comes up here, I plan on taking her there. All the books, the coffee. I did get off lucky this time I only spent about $45. Not bad when I can spend what Bruce Willis makes on a bad day there and still not have enough money.

My brother hooked me up to his family plan account and got me a new cell phone. I have to drive all over the state and as we are to get snow tonight he did not want me driving the back roads without a phone. He also got one for the Boy for his birthday, and each of us got a bluetooth. It feels strange to have that hooked to my ears but oh well.

Other then not having money right now, and not having any in the for see able future life is not bad. I have a good kid, a woman who loves me what more can I want.

Shadowrun

Last night was a Shadowrun night. I do like to play RPG's they are a lot of fun. The only thing that I don't like about this group is that they seem to be fascinated by lesbians. All of them, even the girl who is a friend of mine. The three guys will talk about it a lot, who is one, who they think is one. It is almost as if they are trying to be cool. The people that I play with are all geeks in one form or another. There are two nurses, the woman H, her husband is going to collage for computers, and then there is the retired military MP. He can be a scary guy. I do think that he wishes he was still in the military.

I don't know how to handle it when they go on and on about jokes. I will admit some of what they say is funny, the other hurts. I know that they are not doing it to be mean, that they are just talking and trying to be cooler than they are. We only meet every other week so that does make it a bit better.

My girlfriend does not play. I think she would like it, but she lives to far away. I hate that, I know that she does to. I also know that for right now there is nothing we can do about it.

Quiet

All has been quiet here. I have been working a lot so that means sleeping as well. I never did get the cleaning done that I wanted to but I did get some done.

Last night I made fudge before going to work and it is going fast. The boys seem to like it, they find it strange that it is made with Velveta. Sounds odd but it does taste good.

A good friend of mine is not feeling well. That always makes me feel angry, sad, and frustrated. I know that what she has will never go away and that this is progressive, and that her "spells" are part of the disease. I do wish that she would communicate to her doctor, BF, and family more honestly. They might be able to help get the "spells" under a bit more control.

Working

I have been working like crazy up in Morton this week. The nice thing about it is that there are some very very slow times so that I have been able to work on my counted cross stitching. I know it is not very exciting but it keeps my mind off of other things like how much I miss my girlfriend.

We are going to LV, and I am both excited and nervous about this trip. I think that is a lot of the the fun, she is teasing me about flying out there. She knows that I do no t like to fly so she is asking me if I want to sit next to her or a stranger. Well, her of course. I mean if I get sick, I want to do it on her shoes not someone who I don't know. I know TMI.

Saturday I have declared it CLEAN THE HOUSE day. It is not that bad but I do have to make a day of it or I will never get the floors mopped.

Computers

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Feelings

This past weekend I have been working on feelings. My girlfriend told me that I have a tendency to internalize and not allow my feelings to be shared and she is right I do. So this weekend I was emailing her about my feelings. It is a good thing that she understands how hard it is for me to talk about what I feel and can accept emails from me. I know that it is not the best way to express myself but I think it is a step in the right direction.

I am glad that in she understands why I internalize and will let me work my way through them before I talk about them. I know that I will get to a point where it will be easier to talk about what I am feeling. It will just take work and she is willing to let me work on this.

Nothing to do

This week I have had nothing to do. Well, not really I could have baked or cleaned the house but was not in the mood for it. I did get a bunch of reading done some intersinting some not so. I am still waiting for Lipstick and Dipsticks book to get to my book store but it might not get there. That means getting it on line. I would rather buy it at a store than online but if I have to get it that way I will.

I have also gotten some cross stitching done. Not enough to start a new project but I am almost done with one I should have finished up months ago. Just me being lazy.

The reason for all of this inactivity is no work. Both my jobs have not needed me at all. Now with the weekend here I hope that changes. I need money.

As for my love. O how much I love my love. I know sappy but true.

The Queen, and the fires

On Saturday, I woke up and thought that everything was normal. I was wrong, my dog had a stroke, I talked to the vet and took her in to see him. She did not come home. Queenie, was about 13 years old. That is a long time for a little cocker spaniel. I will miss her.

I know that I should get another dog soon. I don't want one in an apartment, without a yard it is just to mean to a puppy they need a place to run and play.

As for the California fires, I have family down there that no one has heard from as of yet. I know lines can be down as well as cell towers. So I am not yet to worried. Be safe all down there, and a big hug to the firefighters. They need it.