Saturday, September 08, 2007

Lies, sex, love and religion

Ok lies. Lies we all know are every where, I have been lieing to myself in a big way, I recently had to go through personal hell and back to realize that. What, was my hell? I got piss drunk on Bourbon and tequila made a fool of myself, admitted at least to me my lie. Then spent the rest of the week in misery. I am better about what is happening now, I still want to shout to the world but know that I yet cannot.

Sex, I am not getting any. Why? I do not have the makeup to go out there and just find someone for a night of fun. I think that I am to much of a romantic for that. It is not the idea of the wine and dine it is the whole commitment thing. For me part of the turn on is commitment. Is that nuts or what?

Love, I am so in love. The thing that sucks about this is that right now it is a long distance relationship. I did not think that it would work out. The answer to the question at first was no. Then a few months later it was yes. I don't know what changed but I am so glad that it did.

Religion, what the hell. I believe in God, and Goddess. I cannot see God as an all "YOU ARE GOING TO HELL FOR THAT" deity. Do I feel dammed for being me? No not at all, I just feel bad for the people who don't get that.

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